Sunday, July 26, 2009

Things I regret...

When we found out Matthew was in trouble at 27 weeks we didn't know why we just knew he hadn't grown since week 23. We were sent to a larger hospital for more testing. They couldn't figure out what was wrong either. One of the Dr's told us that if anything else happened it would be best to "act in the interest of the healthy twin". We were so angry at these words.

We didn't do anything. We couldn't decide on what to do. At 28 weeks My little boy passed.

I wish I had had the courage to demand a c-section that could have saved his life. We found out later that he died of multiple blood clots in his cord. We could have saved him and we did nothing. I feel horrible that I did nothing to fight for my child.